When I found yoga back in 2014 at the age of 21, I had my first glimpse of the true depth that life can offer us. Ever since then, I have been searching for peace. And I don’t just mean a casual peek around a few corners, I’m talking about diving deep into countless rabbit holes, a woman on what felt like was my life mission. If you have been following me from the beginning, my business, GLOW with the FLOW, was first named ‘Finding Peace with Liga’. My first ever cover photo on my business Facebook page was a quote by Buddha, ‘Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without’. When I read these words, like most Buddhist and Yogic/Hindu philosophical texts I studied, I felt this knowing. I knew these words were the truth. But I didn’t know how to get there. Inner peace felt ever-so elusive.
Over the last 11 years it has been a wonderful, painful, frustrating, liberating, exasperating (just insert all the feelings here!) journey. My twenties really were all about discovering myself. I didn’t travel overseas, though I moved a lot. I rarely partied, missing out often due to chronic health issues. I scraped by with what work I could handle. I didn’t get married, though I got engaged twice. I didn’t buy a house, but I moved houses 25 times. I had a child and became a full-time single mother. I did not expect any of the above to happen, as a child growing up in what was considered a ‘normal’ household. So, a lot of it came as a shock to my ideals, values and beliefs.
But as an Aquarian with a Projector Human Design, my life path was never to live up to the status quo. I was destined to reshape my conditioned beliefs, however painful it was, I couldn’t NOT do it. My mum recently said, ‘You just seem to be happy doing anything that ISN’T mainstream, don’t you?’ We had a good laugh, and I explained, it’s more than that, I like doing things that will bring me peace. And most of what is mainstream these days leads me away from peace. The world we live in and the natural human egoic/survival method is geared to seek pleasure and avoid pain. With these two goals at the forefront of our lives, we can never feel peace. I’ve tried. It has never worked. Finding inner peace does not mean we cannot feel pleasure, and that we will never feel pain. It means that amongst these inevitable experiences within our lives, we will not be shaken by them, completely destabilised and thrown off our centre.
There are so many things I learnt, so many key takeaways to share. Too many for one blog post, hence why I started a blog. To share what may be helpful to others and to give myself a space to explore writing again. There’s something really nice about having more freedom to ramble, to flow with less restriction. Posting content on Facebook makes me feel this unconscious tension and need to be small and succinct. I’m looking forward to sharing this space with you all!